So it's been quite some time since I've been here. I never meant to ditch and run, life just got in the way. Sorry about that.
Well it was an amazing summer, one I will not soon forget. Alas it came to and end just as soon as the colder weather crept in. I should have seen it coming from the start. She had just gotten out of a 13 year relationship 3 months before we met. She hadn't had enough time on her own to come to grips with what had just happened. The thing is, I feel both of us were taken by surprise by each other, not expecting what we got. It started out as just a casual hook up between two adults. But after a while, it turned into something else, something deeper.
She had to move back in with her parents and they live quite far away. Shortly after that and a week before my birthday was when we had "the talk". It wasn't the distance that was a problem, it was her unaddressed issues that surfaced and needed dealing with which drove us apart.
I was confused for a while, numb really. It's only after you loose something or someone that you truly realize what they mean to you. By then it's too late. So now it's picking up the pieces and focussing myself on my work and my training. It hasn't been easy but I sure as hell won't give up
"Change is the only constant. Hanging on is the only sin." ~ Denise McCluggage
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